Babies, Babies everywhere!!!!

So I hope that many of you got to read my last post - my inaugural post, because it describes my goals with this blog. If not, please take the time to do so, it will explain this self prescribed blog.

The best place to start is at the beginning. I have four kids for those of you that don't know this. I have been married for seven years this August and for the majority of my adult life I have been pregnant. My kids range in age from 6 years to almost 6 months. Things I have learned about myself during this process is that for my first three pregnancies I loved being pregnant, my fourth I knew it was the last because it just was very confining to me. During each of my pregnancies I never really gained that much weight, less than the average woman I've been told, but it's the post baby weight that I never really lost with each kid. So, I'd gain baby weight and not lose it then get pregnant again and gain new baby weight and not lose it and so on and so forth, so by the end of the whole process I had gained about 60 pounds that I haven't lost. I had gained about 10 pounds when dating Tony, so overall I am hoping to eventually lose about 70-75 pounds. Now as everyone knows, even blogging about it, doesn't mean I'm going to tell you my weight! That would just be crazy!

Here is my main dilemma. I work from home running my own daycare, therefore I don't get out of the house which poses three problems. I don't get real outside exercise, I don't interact with other people and I have a kitchen at my disposal for constant snacking. See my problem? On top of this I am not skilled enough to juggle my schedule to figure out when to exercise. As it is I don't get to bed until midnight most nights, and though I am on the blog right now, kids are here and I can't really  start a workout video when I'm working as easily as I can type up a quick blog. As soon as daycare kids get picked up at 6pm, then it's dinner, baths, play with the kids for a bit, then off to bed for them. After they are asleep I work on paperwork and cleaning up things I couldn't when they were here. So you see suggestions are welcome as to when and how to exercise!

My first step to success I am hoping is to start journaling the things I consume. Then I can see what I actually eat and drink and can then start to see how to start eating less. I need to keep in my head that the kitchen is closed except at mealtimes and that even the cook can't get a taste before then.

So here is a little background info. and a little guide to my life. I wasn't always a fatty, in fact I used to think I was even a little hot! (grins sheepishly) but now I have gone from hotty to self conscience and insecure.


So I plead with the blogging world.....please help me keep myself in check and help me stay sane in the chaos that is my world. More later....

Finally it's all about me!!!

This is my inaugural post. Welcome to my new blog that doesn't just talk about my kids. For too long I have submerged myself into my kids' lives and feel like I have lost my identity. I dearly love my children and don't mind most of the time devoting my life to their needs and wants, but am scared that when they are grown and gone (which is happening much faster than I would like) I will not know what to do with myself. Once an avid reader and somewhat of a literary, I have read maybe five books in the last 6 1/2 years. This is just an example of something that is lost - a part of me. When I stop and think about things I am interested in, I just don't know. (As a side note, I had to go back in my photo archives to find a picture of me for this blog that did not involve kids - there were like a total of 5!!!! It's almost like I am the camera woman of my life, but I'm not in it.)

This blog will be about me and generally speaking only me. Yes there might be a kids or husbands name thrown in the mix from time to time, but usually only in reference to how they have made me feel about something. My goal of this blog is to keep it light hearted and to make my life seem funnier than it is. When something is depressing me or making me feel bad I want to take the negative out of it by sharing it with you all and in doing so making it seem funny or find the good in the bad. I hope I succeed. Amidst the "feelings" of this blog I am also going to use this blog to journal my (hopefully successful) weightloss. I've discovered that I am not a good motivator of myself. But if I put it all out there for you to judge and read, I will be more likely to try harder so you all can cheer me on! :) And in doing so, hopefully I will find myself thinner, healthier and happier.I feel like I have so much to say and no one to say it to. I spend my entire day surrounded by kids that the most important thing to them is if they got a new toy or got to do something fun. I feel a little starved for adult communication at times and my poor daycare moms sometimes get caught in my chatty web. I don't have many friends these days and rarely get out of the house because of working at home and then my large family. I'm not complaining but I do desire to be one of those women that has a small group of girlfriends that go to monthly lunches or go to get their hair done together or take their kids to the park together. You know very Sex in the City-ish. Recently my best friend moved out of Omaha, and though we didn't see each other as much as I would have liked, we talked non-stop and now I don't really have that because we are so busy with our own lives. So my goal with this blog is to hopefully put it all out there - speak to my audience, if there is one, and communicate with people older than 5.

Please comment! About my posts, about my weight loss, about my thoughts, about me in general - but try and be kind! This is your window into my brain so tread lightly! :)
I hope to entertain you a bit and keep you coming back for more. I already have like the next 50 blog posts in mind because as many of you know I like to talk, so this is just one more way to do that!

Well I will close for tonight and start my weight loss posting tomorrow. I intend on trying to post daily no matter if it's just one sentence (which might be impossible for me) or a books worth of commentary. I will still have my family blog at coffeylifeomaha.blogspot.com where I will talk about my family and things the kids are up to but this one is just for me. So check often for updates and welcome to a blog that is all about me.